Ultimatums

Ultimatums


So, it didn't turn out the way I expected

If I knew then what I know now

I would do it all over again

If I felt then what I feel now

I would have done it sooner

Because the only hand that I force was my own

I learned that I'm strong enough to let go

And I'm worth the best anyone has to offer

I'd rather cry over the truth

Than smile believing a lie

Making peace with the truth

Beats the bliss of ignorance

Any day of the week

If I hadn't done it, I be pissed

Still holding on and being strung along

I gave myself an ultimatum that forced me to let go

Letting go afforded me the freedom of forgiveness

I've finally got peace free of anger

Holding on meant my heart was constantly being broken

Letting go finally gave it time to heal

I stopped blaming myself for things I couldn't control

For decisions left in someone else's hands

I found out that everything that affects me

Isn't actually about me

Sometimes we are just caught in the crossfire

I no longer care if they know what it did to me

Or if they know how it made me feel

My life is not the dress rehearsal

For the next major motion picture

So I threw out the script

Constantly playing my head

I can finally wish you grace and forgiveness

Daily, I pray you have the freedom of a clear conscience

If I knew then what I know now

I would do it all over again

If I felt then what I feel now

I would have done it sooner